I know what you are thinking… “What rhymes with Vimala?” Well, I haven’t found the answer to that question. But, I will tell you who he is. He is my teacher at the meditation center. He certainly has not taught me within the last several years that there is a quick fix for anything. So, reflecting back to Part One, I will share with you that even though purchasing a book on meditation was my quick fix for my mental health, it turns out that there is nothing quick about using this new tool.
I was drawn by the intention of the book. I saw its use as incorporating contemplative meditations daily for spiritual growth. I liked that. Focusing on something other than the constant battering of negativity going on in my brain was a huge relief. I made a commitment to myself that I would use the meditations on a daily basis. As I look back, that alone was the greatest gift I could give to myself, a daily practice.
The very first meditation’s purpose is to encourage ourselves to practice Dharma. Even though I didn’t know yet what the Dharma was, here is what hooked me.
“If we use our human life to accomplish spiritual realizations, it becomes immensely meaningful. By using it in this way, we actualize our full potential and progress from the state of an ordinary, ignorant being to that of a fully enlightened being, the highest of all beings; and when we have done this, we will have the power to benefit all living beings without exception. In this way, by using our human life to gain spiritual realizations, we can solve all our human problems and fulfill all our own and others’ wishes. What could be more meaningful than this?”
Here is what struck me hard as an anxious and depressed person. Perhaps life has meaning after all? Perhaps this can be a goal? Some things I certainly didn’t have at that moment or for several years prior were meaning or goals. Up until now my goal had been to survive one day at a time (sometimes just an hour at a time). And, what I’ve come to learn with more years of practice is that wondering whether or not it is an achievable goal is missing the point entirely.
I was determined to feel better and now I had a direction. My mantra became “I must practice Dharma”.
What do you think about incorporating a daily practice into your life? I’d love to hear your thoughts…
~On Ji, Becky Kuczer